Looking into Christianity again & my "professing" mom went nuts that I was being a Berean & wanted clarity on Satan/demonic

Q: I could really use some advice right now because I’m quite literally balling my eyes out after what just happened…😞

So to preface this, I recently got out of a bad relationship and back home with my emotionally immature/unavailable mother. She made an effort to raise us in the church because her dad was a minister.. but I quickly strayed away from Christianity as I got older because of the way it was portrayed to me. I believe in my heart that my mom’s family were not genuine Christian’s. They were really nasty, hateful people who justified their behavior by saying “well I go to church and you don’t” ….those type. Not the “love conquers everything” type if that makes any sense.

Anyways, I have done a lot of soul searching over the last few months. I decided I wanted to get a good understanding for the Bible on my own. Because despite my upbringing, I really don’t know much at all due to me always rejecting it on account of watching all the “Christian’s” around me growing up. Including my mother.

So I started watching this pastors Podcast on YouTube. The third or 4th video I watched was an interviewer who was asking this pastor a bunch of commonly asked questions that were frequent comments by fans…one of the questions he asked the pastor is if he believed in Greek mythology and if he felt like any of it was real.  To sum it up he basically said  “I believe Greek mythology is true to a certain extent. Not much. But little bits and pieces.” Basically going onto say that the people who “witnessed” these things were actually witnessing people who were possessed by demons. So that in a way, some of these story’s are true. But VERY EXAGGERATED. He compared it to playing a game of telephone. After these story’s were getting passed down year after year the truth gets mixed with dramatics and you have to pick out what was real and what’s not.

I had a really hard time following what he was saying, the people and stories he was referencing because I have never even heard of Greek mythology until that point. I hadn’t the slightest clue.

So I decided to do my research a little. Watch a couple videos so I could better understand what he was talking about. And then planned on reading the parts of the Bible that he was referencing to compare.
Before I could do that my mom asked me what I was doing. I explained to her the same thing 👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼 and she was immediately overcome with anger and said I needed to pack my things and be gone by tomorrow (out of her home). I tried to explain to her that I just wanted a better understanding to educate myself and form my own opinion …..and she wouldn’t budge.

She said she wanted me gone as I was inviting demons into her home, and that God was going to punish her for allowing me to even engage with those kinds of things. That the study of evil things, and witchcraft is opening up a spiritual realm. Then I told her I’d been watching videos of ministry teams all over the world casting out demons from within people and SHE LOST IT. She made a really huge scene and said that she was physically trembling from the fact that her own kid would disrespect God in such a way.

I’m new to this so I am so confused …. I am genuinely lost. I have tried to see it from her point of view but I’m just not understanding what I’m doing wrong. I believe in God. I love God and I know he’s real. But I also feel like being able to explore all the facts, the good the bad and the ugly is part of getting a genuine understanding for something.

I am always open to receive insight from anyone willing to share. I felt like it could’ve been a very healthy and informative conversation for me and that maybe she’d be able to give me some good feedback ….but instead it turned into a huge fight. I told her it was very small minded to completely disown someone and be filled with rage because they are learning a different way than you did. Or because they’re searching for better understanding about something you don’t necessarily believe or care for, for that matter.
She said she only wants the good parts and that if it isn’t something positive about God and the story of the Bible, that she didn’t want it in her house. Including talk about demons….

I want to know just as much about the devil as I do Jesus.
I want to know how to identify the devil and his workings ….how he attacks and manipulate people and how God steps in and guides his children.

Am I wrong ? I’m trying to understand. But I can’t …I just want to know everything. But not just surface details. Everything….am I really harming myself and others around me by watching these things ? I’m so confused and I’m already ready to give up on my journey ……..😓😓😓
I feel so defeated.

A: I am sorry you had that experience. But there is hope 🙂.

You are doing right. You are being a Berean as the ones in the New Testament. Scripture says truth will cause division in families so to will following Christ. So just remember that and keep seeking truth.

There are many in false churches holding to false and idolatrous so called "Christian" beliefs; and so too are those in them. Your mom likely just concerned you will be decieved by those evil false teachers who are in the dark corners of the internet, subtly decieving many with their doctrines of demons.

Those saved are happy to help people looking into the Truth; but only if theyve been faithful diligent in learning Scripture "to be aproved workmen of God". Those on Satan's side want to prevent you getting help. Your mom might just not know how to address these answers, or might be a weak believer, but could have righteous anger and concern the demonic are trying to lure you in. I'm not sure if she is saved, even if the extended family isnt. But this is why being in a solid bible focused church is important. And its good you are looking into these things.

When people are tempted to sin they are led away by their own sinful desires but also can be tempted by Satan and his demon minions. So...
Demons are everywhere as are the Angels of God. Did you know everyone who will be saved has an angel guarding them until the Day of Salvation. And that the born again will judge angels? Neat.

Ok. So to help you...
Understand what is the Gospel. As its the basics of Christianity. The NeedGod.com  vid clip will bring clarity.

Here is more on Satan and false teaching.

Here are answers about Christianity, and "other religions and the greek mythology". Go thru the 3 free videos.

You were likely looking at J Warner Wallace, Lee Strobel, Stand to Reason, Red Pen logic, cross examined (who has wrong understanding of soteriology), or Cliff Knechtle from Ask Cliff (who says mostly right things). These are biblical apologists who try to help people understand things of biblical Christianity. And they're good to listen to. But again, get your answers verified and vetted by your pastor, Sunday school & Bible study teachers and the mature believers you encounter at church.

It does make sense that hypocritical things you experienced and saw might push you away from Christianity, but is also good God has revealed to you that God/Christ/true Christians are not like that. We need to seek after God who is true, and gives us truth; which it is found in Scripture. And it appears he is drawing you to himself as you seek to find out the answers to things you want clarity on. I also recommend looking here to understand the basics on clarity of life, sin, Jesus, God and righteousness. As it goes with the Gospel and explains why we need it, for a proper understanding. 

Its best to not freak your mom out if she fell for the false teachings of deliverance ministries that has her living in fear of satan instead of trusting in God. So perhaps search through these things at a cafe or somewhere not at home. If shes letting you still live there. Just read the Bible when you are there and go find a biblical church to go to. Its the safest option for now.

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